Girl Cake

I thought today I would tell you about a conversation I had with Raegan recently. It involves private parts, so the faint of heart should stop reading now :)

One day I was getting dressed and Raegan came in my room. Privacy is a privilege I lost when I had my first baby. Anyway, as I was getting dressed
she said "Mommy what are those?" (pointing to my chest)
I said, "Those are breasts."
Noticing she had a face on that said I can't say that word, I said, "They are boobies."
"Oh.."she said. " I don't have boobies, (lifting up her shirt) I have ribs."
I said " Well I have ribs too, they are just under my boobies."
"Oh, yeah, my boobies are under my ribs."
"No, honey, you don't have boobies yet, you won't get them till you are older."
"Oh...yeah, when I am bigger then I will have boobies!" (big smile on her face.)

It is so funny to see the differences between boys and girls. Raegan can't wait to look like me...wear a bra. I told her when she starts to have boobies that I will take her shopping and we will find her a bra. By her reaction you would have thought I was going to buy her a brand new toy! It is so cute!

I love my daughter so much, however I do not wish on her my boobies! Hopefully she will not take after me in that department

Chocolate Cake or Yellow Cake??

Choices...there are always a lot of those to make throughout the day. How many of them are the right ones? This morning I had the choice to watch tv or play with Raegan. Today I chose to play. We played Beauty Parlor! She loved being able to sit in front of the mirror and put on make-up. We curled our hair and decided that today was not a good day to have our nails done :) It was fun and when we were done we looked FABULOUS! But to be honest I usually chose the tv. Why do we spend so much time chosing things that don't matter? Like tonight, when we got home from church. It was almost 9pm and I was rushing Raegan to get ready for bed. I was rushing her because LOST starts at 9 and I didn't want to miss it. She, being the silly three year old she is, was being silly and dancing around her room. I snapped at her and told her 4 times in a progressively loud voice to get pj's on. Then once she was in bed and under the covers, for some reason I felt the need to scold her for having all of her shoes on the floor. Why did I do that? Was LOST really that important? NO!!!! Of course not, yet I chose to make it that important. My sweet little girl said in a small quiet voice, "I am sorry mommy." I am such a mean mom sometimes!!!

I truly understand the conflict Paul tells us about in Romans 7:15-19.. "I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, and what I hate I do. I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do- this I keep on doing."

This is a picture of my existence!! My heart chooses the right thing...but that does not always happen.

Then you have the choices that are forks in the road. Which way do you go? How do you know which is the right way? Why doesn't God come down from heaven and answer these choices?? God, should I talk to this person? God, what do you want me to do with my life? Should I steer my children down this road, or the other road?
These choices are frustrating! Sometimes it is hard to know what he wants us to do. Sometimes I think, if I take the time to ask, he should be kind enough to answer. I mean, I am asking because I want to know what he wants me to do. Why is that so hard??
My wonderful, pastor, husband says he thinks that if you pray and ask God for an answer and He doesn't give you one, then the answer is do nothing. Stay still and keep doing what you are doing. God will answer you..

Tonight I pray that God gives me the strength to chose the desire of my heart and the ears to hear His answer!

Be-Lated Birthday Cake for my Mr. Incredible

Well, here I am writing to my husband, a day after his birthday! I am an awful wife!! :) Well, yesterday my husband turned 32. It is so funny I always vowed I would never marry someone younger than me..yet here I am. I guess one year isn't that big of a deal, right? For his birthday the kids and I bought him a running suit, a golf club and some golf balls. Raegan was very excited about giving him the golf balls :) Then we went to Outback steakhouse for dinner. Then, Patrick took the kids to Toys R Us to go shopping for some toys. We just got our tax refund and he and I wanted to treat the kids to something, since we never seem able to do that. That is my husband! He loves to shop and not just for himself. He loves to buy others gifts! I love this about him! He is so giving..sometimes I have to tell him no!

Patrick, I am so blessed to be your wife. You are a wonderful man with love in his heart. I am excited to see what life has in store for us. You are my best friend and my comical relief :) I would be lost in this world without you. I love you and I am so glad on this day you were born to be part of my life now.